Monotony

Hey loves! 

I have not written a post on here in weeks and the honest reason is that I felt like I had nothing to say. I normally write about whatever is on my mind, but it feels like a monotony has taken over my life. Do not get me wrong, I actually enjoy staying home and it is not something that bothers me. But there is simply little to no variety to my life at the moment. I get up at the same time every morning, sit down at my desk latest at 8am and start my live study with me sessions on my YouTube channel. I finish at 4pm and then I go through some emails and some more work. It may sound boring, but I get to do what I love everyday - yes, I am such a nerd that I can say that I actually love law. 

A few days ago, I had a FaceTime call with a friend and I realised what a blessing my monotony actually is. Many people are struggling with keeping up a routine in quarantine and it has somehow come rather easily to me. I have always been someone who did not struggle much to stick to a schedule and so it was little to no surprise that I would have my quarantine time fully scheduled rather quickly. 

There were a few not-so-monotonous highlights of my quarantine time as well: A few weeks ago, I received an email that a journal article a graduate student and I wrote was accepted for publication. This was an incredible moment for me as I had started writing this article a few months into law school and it feels so surreal that it will now be published. The fact that a professor was willing to give me a chance to write a paper for publication in his class despite the fact that I knew little to nothing about law at that point is something I never expected and I am incredible grateful for the opportunity. So yeah, I may have had a little dance party in my room once I found out the article would be published. 

My YouTube channel also recently hit 40,000 subscribers which was a big milestone for me. A few months ago, I had less than 10,000 subscribers and my channel's recent growth had a lot of perks but also some not-so-great side effects. But even though hate comments are never great to read, they also taught me to stand up for myself a little more. I used to be super shy and a few years ago, some of these comments would probably have made me cry. Seeing my 20-year-old self cope so much better was a great achievement for me. 

And lastly, I had a little quarantine photoshoot for myself. I enjoyed getting a little creative and playing around with my camera and a self-timer. I used to do that a lot more and it made me realise how much I missed my creative side. Spending a few hours in front of a camera and then in front of a screen to work on photoshop is a privilege I usually do not have during the term and so doing this felt like a little vacation. The title picture of this post is an example of what came out of my little photoshoots for myself.

But yeah, my life has nonetheless been largely monotonous. It may sound boring, but I am actually really happy with it. I may not have learned some cool new quarantine skills, but I love my little routine. So here is to celebrating the things that may not be exciting like your monotonous routine, but that can have a realty positive impact on your life. 

Stay safe. 

Lots of Love,

Elena